Day 4 of 30 Day Diet.

Weight this morning 127.9

Weight yesterday morning 128.8

I was almost there, and then I crashed. This morning, I left my house in a haste without time to meal plan or cook breakfast. Luckily, I had a granola bar in my purse and pretzels in my desk at work. But, by the end of the day, I had major cravings for something sweet and chocolate flavored. I think these cravings may have been brought on by my lack of hydration; I hadn't had any water or anything else to drink yet. Or, maybe the cravings were hitting me because I knew that I was going to be baking brownies today. I bake brownies once a month and distribute them to my students with birthdays that month. The kids love them, but they're not the only ones. I adore brownies, especially topped with Hagen Daz Coffee Ice Cream. Hmmmm....sigh.

I got home from my cleaning at the dentist (my gums hurt) and set to baking. Once I got the batter all whipped up and placed in a pan to bake, I couldn't resist licking the spoon and whisk. I should have known then that I wasn't going to make it through the day without eating one of the brownies. But, trying to do the right thing, I made dinner, a hot dog on a slice of bread with mustard, ketchup, and onions, and 1/4 cup of baked fries. My dinner was good, but I still had a sugar craving. I had tasted the batter and it was like heroin. I needed more. Still resisting the urge, I carried a box of Mike n Ikes and a blow pop with me to class so that I wouldn't eat the brownie. I was low on fat grams left for the day, but I had the calories to spare; that is why I went for the Mike n Ikes, just sugar, no fat. After class, I got home, and I thought that I would have a bowl of cereal to satisfy my sugar craving, but after one bowl, the craving only intensified.

I don't know why I even tried to fight it. When I finally gave in and ate a brownie, I realized it was all worth it. It was pretty dang dee-licious. Sometimes you have to give in to your cravings, or like me, you'll overeat in other areas trying to resist, and just end up way over your calorie and fat limit instead of just a little over. If I had eaten the brownie when I first had the craving, I would never have eaten the Mike n Ikes or the blow pop, and probably not the cereal either. We'll see how it all affects my weight tomorrow. The breakdown of my food journal today is below:

Breakfast

granola bar 100 calories 3 fat grams

Snack

pretzels 230 calories 2 fat grams

Lunch/Dinner = Linner

hot dog 90 calories 9 fat grams

Bread 120 calories 2.5 fat grams

ketchup 30 calories 0 fat

mustard 0 calories 0 fat

Baked Fries 75 calories 4 fat grams

Snack

Mike n Ikes 130 calories 0 fat

blow Pop 30 calories 0 fat

Snack

Cereal 320 3 fat grams

Desert

Brownie 170 calories 8 grams of fat

coffee 20 calories 0 fat

grand total 1,315 calories 31.5 grams of fat

Ultimately not horrible, but I still fell off the wagon. Sometimes, the closer I get to the weekend, the hardest it is to stay dedicated. Maybe I'll have better luck tomorrow.